I had this aha moment the other day that turned into a huh moment!
I was wondering why God waited till I was sixty-four years old to save me from myself. Lets face it my life one year ago was a mess. Regrets, shame, hopelessness consumed me day in and day out. It took getting straight with God and laying it all on the table. Then as I had read one day just ask him to change me. To do his will, to let me live out the rest of my life with purpose for his glory.
Now I know what his plan for me was and is. First I had to have a sincere heart. One that loved him and everyone in my daily life. Put the past behind me, live to be more like him.
You see it is easier to do his will then mine. When confronted with people who are negative and complain that he isn’t answering their prayers, try to be compassionate. Ask what can He do that he hasn’t already done. These types of situation were for me difficult. Now loving others has makes it easier.
I search out passages in the bible daily to understand that my heart has to be open. Today I read from Proverbs 4: 23, Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it. Then I found from Matthew 18:35, This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother and sister from your heart.
Why just the other day a police officer here in Tulsa shot and killed an unarmed black man. Now she is facing first degree manslaughter charges. It makes me wonder what was in her heart when she pulled the trigger? Fear?
There is a web site I follow called Hard As Nails co founded by Justin Fatica. The best way to describe his ministry is, a New Evangelization. See his videos on the web site and Youtube. As I was at their site I noticed a poster on the wall. It says, Educating the mind without educating the heart is no education at all. Ain’t that the truth.
Now I pray for courage that I never had to open up to people. To tell my story of redemption. The hope I have is from the stories that others have shared with anyone who would listen. Thankfully my heart was open to hear how He saved others.
If this nation of ours and the whole world needs healing it must not harden their hearts.